Sunday, December 21, 2008
love is a mess
♥ at 5:36 PM
mayb u jus went into army too early when we are nt stable enough.
its been 9days since u went in, these few days i have been thinking. from the first day u went in until nw, our conversations everyday were getting lesser and lesser. i really feel we are drifting. we seem to have nth much to talk to each other. i try to sound happy and think of topics to talk bout bt u seem shag and like nt wanting to talk to mi. mayb u are tired bt when u talking to ur bunk mates u are so energetic. mi who is at the other side of the phone, how do u think i will feel. talking to mi makes u very sian and unhappy isit. everytime nt until 5mins we will hang, wid many silences in our conversation. without u out here is tough, bt ur temper seem to still nt change. u don seem to care bout wats happening wid mi outside, or mayb u did i jus dint notice. i really dunno im feeling very confused nw. everything tt we did for the past 2months keeps running through my mind, the good and the bad. i really feel we are become more and more like strangers. there are alot of i dunnos and maybs. i dunno mayb its my fault. i nt goin to work for 2days and tt mayb i will be goin to find another job. and u said i was irresponsible and u are disappointed wid mi. yar its my fault tt i don wanna go to work, it my fault tt i like to slp so much tt i cant wake up to go to work, its my fault tt i wanna find another job, its my fault tt i said i wanted to work there and nw i keep donwan go work, its my fault tt i cant even withstand when u only went in for 9days and our relationship become like tt. its my fault tt i could nt fulfil our promise. im really afraid to see u on th 24th, i dunno how it will be like. 2more days...
and, pls don make mi hate u.
